People that I always thought I knew? Yeah....I don't. It's kind of pathetic, but that's a different story. Kind of sad, really. I'm learning who I can depend on and who I can't, which is kind of a sad reality sort of situation. On top of the people that I already knew I could trust and depend on in Iowa/Nebraska, I've met the most amazing people here. Seriously. Honestly....I've met me here. After being on my own for a while, I feel like I never really knew myself to begin with. And maybe I didn't. I got married at 18. Started having babies at 19. That's big. Things have changed so much. I didn't know this kind of independence and happiness existed! And now...here I am, doing something people told me I'd never be able to do. I'm good with that, no matter how exhausting.
The only downside to things right now is that I'm coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my dad's death. That's a really tough pill to swallow...still. And no one really gets it. Unless you've lost your parent (your "I'm a daddy's girl/I'm a mommy's girl parent), you won't get it. The closer it gets to the one year mark, the more my heart breaks. And thank GOD, I've got understanding people around me.
More later dudes and dudettes!
