24 Years.....young?

I'll be honest. This birthday is going to sting a little bit. I always feel like "I'm __ years old and I've done nothing with my life!". Of course I've maintained a marriage for almost 6 years. Yes, I have two beautiful children with another on the way. But what have I done for myself? I'm in school...but I should have started a long time ago. Oh well, let's see how 24 goes. Let's hope it's a good year. I guess I'll know in the morning, lol.

Meanwhile, who is less than thrilled about this whole government shut down ordeal? Yeah. No military pay? It's bullshit. And I cannot begin to tell you how upset I am that all of this comes down to Planned Parenthood funding! Okay, let me just say that I've been researching the world of abortion for over a year now. I went into it strongly pro-life. I checked out Planned Parenthood. Do they provide abortions? Of course. Do all of them provide abortions? Absolutely not. Some provide the abortion pill. Some provide the pill, along with first trimester abortions. A very few of them provide second trimester abortions. ALL of them provide birth control, sex education, STD testing, gynecological care (a very necessary service for women), among other things...at very often, DISCOUNTED prices. And really, we're going to shut down the United States government over this? We're going to take away military pay over this? Are we going to take away funding for city hospitals? Many of these provide abortions. Many don't. But hell, some do...so let's cut off funding to all of them. I'm not saying that shady things don't happen in some PPs. Of course they do. Shady things are happening in our government offices. Shady things happen everywhere. That comes anytime peoples are involved. That doesn't come just because of a company name.

On one last note for this post...tomorrow is my birthday. That also means that it is only 5 days from being 2 years since "the incident". I've been having a really hard time with this the last week or so. Maybe it's harder this year because I'm pregnant. I'll admit, I'm a big ball of hormones. But shit, is it ever going to go away? Two years later and it still haunts me. I thought it'd be over and done with by now. It doesn't still hurt as bad as it did. It still aches...but at the same time, I feel numb about it. Is it possible to be hurt and angry and numb all at the same time? Can we say...HORMONES?