In the almost 5 years that I've been married, my husband has spent the majority of the time thinking that I am a total psycho bitch that's nothing but possessive and lazy, and being more interested in other girls...though my staying at home with our children was a MUTUAL decision.
My parents apparently think I'm a total fuck-up. I'm in my second year of my FIRST stint in college (working towards a BA of Science in Psychology with a concentration in child development, with a minor in criminal justice), and yet, they barely seem to notice. Now add my sister to the equation (who happens to be MY dad's step daughter), and they're constantly excited about the grades she's making and what she's going to do with her real estate law degree (this is her....second (i think) stint in college).
Currently, my biggest heartbreak is the latest separation. It only lasted three short months. I went from being a pregnant stay at home mom to a working (full time...usually 12 hour days), single mother...who was told that my husband never wanted our second child-that he only got me pregnant to shut me up. I considered abortion. I never thought I'd be one to consider abortion--for any reason. I had always been against it. And yet, because I thought I was bringing a child into a broken home where only one parent REALLY wanted him, I considered it. And of course, my in-laws hate me. Mostly because my husband has told them things (like that I was crazy) without giving them the story behind it (like, I was actually heart broken that he was more interested in other girls). Thankfully, my STEP-mother-in-law knows pretty much everything and has been supportive and still loves me.
My heart WAS broken. My heart is STILL broken. And clearly, I'm still trying to deal with my marital issues, along with my family ones.
So, welcome to the journey. It's going to be a long one...
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